March 23, 2020

I have not been out of the house since Thursday.  I met Emily to bring her some stuff and pick up some stuff for her move home on Saturday.  I agree with the mandate that all people need to stay home.  Marc sees it differently.  He sees it from an economic perspective, but I say health right now is more important.  We will be fine.  We have a lot to fall back on.  But if we get this virus, we may not be fine.  Emily is worried because she has asthma..  I do not want to get this and bring it to work.  What if we don't have enough PPE for the future.  I believe Holland Hospital will be prudent in their use and pull it out when it absolutely becomes necessary.  For now, one mask a day.  I need to pick up hours or marc will totally freak out.  Thankfully, we don't have any big expenses.  Sydney's birthday is Sunday.  I feel horrible for her.  But she is handling it like a trooper.  We will reschedule.  We will make her day special regardless.  Of course she still took off to Isaiah's today against my better judgement, but at this point what is one more day.  She knows now that she can't go there anymore.  Part of me still feels in denial that this is actually happening.  Then I get panicky when I realize it is happening and the governor says we are on track to be the next Italy.  And the hospitals are filling up.  I pray W. Michigan isn't as hard hit.  Or it may just be behind because the virus didn't travel here as fast.  I know that God has a plan in all of this and we just need to trust him.  I don't feel as panicky today.  I have spent more time in the word.  I still have trouble knowing how to pray and really praying.  Maybe this whole quarantine will bring us all closer together, or we will kill each other.  I'm praying that the girls are open to actually spending time with us.  A new game everyday.  Or the same one.  New movies we haven't watched.  I don't know how to talk to Marc about this.  He spirals downward and gets so negative.  It frustrates me.  He needs to keep it in perspective.  Yes it is worrisome about his job and it is all unknown.  But if he had to, he could go stock shelves at Meijer.

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